I feel obsessive so much of the time, and lucky when my spiritual sources allow me to funnel that obsession into creativity. I made music prolifically as a young person, to the point that doing so became inextricable from my identity. In recent years, I’ve struggled to make music with any kind of consistency, and have internalized some lesser-examined feelings of failure around that. However, I’m experiencing a wave of holistic recovery that has me feeling freer and more expansive in how I conceive of my creative offerings and of myself.
I’m celebrating that I’m proud of and happy with this song and video. I’m celebrating the embodied feeling that my enjoyment of what I make and how I make it is in and of itself a highly worthwhile creative purpose. I’m celebrating practicing vulnerability in a new way by showcasing expressions that are not intended to please or charm, but instead to require me to invoke as much authenticity as possible.
If we’ve gotta cry, we may as well CRYDANCE.
xo freddie
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lyrics
i was higher than ever before
i was higher than ever before
i was higher than ever before
i never liked your favorite band
i only liked to hold your hand
i never liked your favorite band
i never thought of you unkind
until i found that you had lied
i never thought of you unkind
a photo worth a thousand lies
disappointment in disguise
a photo worth a thousand lies
you wanted to be friends
i’ve better ones to tend
everybody knows you
everybody knows your name
what does all that knowing get ya
i was higher than ever before
i was higher than ever before
i was higher than ever before
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